Mar 02 2009
Where did I go??
Losing yourself in one’s surroundings seems difficult, but believe me, it’s not! So, since I have had this “problem” before, I have tried to only surround myself with WONDERful, like-minded,energetically sound BEings, and it HAS worked, up until now…. I mean it isn’t the fault of any of the beautiful people I choose to spend my time with, it’s actually MY fault for trying to be of help to any and all BEing that I meet. It’s in my nature, I am a natural helper, a healer and a lover. I can see and feel energy in me, and in other’s as well. So I decided to open my heart even bigger a little while ago and said out loud to the universe and all the lovlie’s in the world, “Melissa is here to help, I am allowing my gifts to be here and present, for all to see.” So I started getting calls from friends, loved ones and people I haven’t seen or heard from in a while. They all needed to talk, to see more clearly and to get some good advice and many, many hugs! Which I give out freely, and with warm,warm love right in the middle of those hugs. All of this is great and amazing, except along the way,I got lost in all the issues and problems and pains that everyone left behind. Their energy got left IN me!
This is totally my fault. I didn’t specify to all the Godesses and Gods exactly what I had in mind. So I got what I asked for; but since I didn’t think any farther ahead, I got left with a lot of pain myself.
Being someone with a Magic touch and Magic heart is the greatest gift I could ever ask for, but now I know what I need to do to get all the pain out of me when the people I “treat” and I give my gifts to are gone.
I always knew this road was going to be bumpy, winding, and often times confusing, but how could I have asked for anything better?
I need to start learning more and more about crystals again; break out the old books, and start readin’. I have the knowledge and the touch and I FEEL way too much, so now I need to know where to put “it” when I am done doing all these healings and advice giving’s. Crystals are a good way to release things and also to hold energy for you too. I have a deck of fairy cards that you read sort of like Tarot. But I feel more a likeness to them than the Tarot. I do say I am a Fairy so that MAY be why! Speaking of tools that can be used in the healing arts and touch therapy, I also have a set of Runes and would like to get better at those as well! They seem to be POWerful, I know I need all the power I can get right now…
I want to make it clear that no one is at fault here, NO ONE!
I am recognizing (too late) that I can’t be so open and quick with these gifts, without a plan FIRST! Now that there is a plan and the know-how, I feel more confident and more aware of the possibilities that can and will come at me to thorougly use my gifts and my words of love and light.
This is a lot of jargon I think, but I understand what I am saying and what I needed to get out, either on here or on paper. So why not on my blissfull, love and light blog? That’s what this is for, right?
Sorry to those who know me,I may have been lost for a few days, but now I am found! Sorry if I felt “far away” and looked tired, I am still tired but I am “here” now. It’s great to be back and more awake this time around.
love, light and spiraling, sWeeT bLiSS…
Melissa Magic
