Magic Bliss

I have some sort of “Blogger’s Block” going on. I have not been able to think of any good material for my blog. Well actually I have some but I don’t know if it’s “blog-worthy”. So I have decided to write about the economy and the ways it is affecting me and my emotions. I wish and hope only for grand things to happen to everyone who has been affected by the slipping economic downturn.

I am not even talking about money, but the way this thing is emotionally, and mentally affecting our culture. All the ways it’s putting fear at the fore front of many peoples minds.  I am lucky enough to be surrounded by wonderful, positive, and bright people in my life, people that, no matter what, still keep on, keepin’ on. They(and I) are creative, have a sense of cummunity, and are a group of do-gooders, who love to smile! These positive vibrations, and friends,  are the things that are keeping me going. I am involved with the money woes in many ways. I have NO money! Really, I am not exagerating! I am afraid, I am a bit lost, BUT, what other folks in this same situation are not doing that I am, is HOPING, FEELING, KNOWING and TRUSTING that things will be ok!

I am blessed with a roof over my head. I am blessed with food in my belly. I am blessed with a warm bed at night. I have friends. I could go on and on. I am trying to paint the picture that once there is a sense of community established, things begin to look and feel brighter. CommUNITY, for me has meant more dinners with friends. Big, potluck style, bring what you can kind of meals! Sharing trips to the grocery store,having fun AND being productive! Movie nights with friends, popcorn is cheap! Volunteering to do something amazing for the environment with your friends turns into a fun escape and an adventure!

Even learning to be by yourself, reading, writing, working on a skill or craft that you want to perfect, are all good ways to save your money, but still be positive and productive.

I was feeling so alone and “without”, until I spoke with my friend about how she had to interpret for a Spanish speaking man who sleeps under a bridge every night and goes to(tries to) find a day labor job every day. After this conversation I felt lucky, I mean really lucky!

I know the friends I have would do whatever they could to prevent me from sleeping under a bridge. I wish everyone in the world was able to have a community of friends like I have! I am living in a magical house with magical people who are amazing in so many ways. They know I am trying to make it here and they know I am a hard worker who will get what I need. But, just for the record, and in case they read this, I would be completely screwed and not as blessed with out their help. So,  Thank You!!!!

I have begun to understand the ‘art’ of frugality. I have always been able to live this way anyway, but until now it WASN’T a necessity. I am cooking a lot more, like I said, and am seeking free, fun and productive ways for me to still have fun, but create more ways of learning as well. My hula hooping has become better and I am pushing myself into more tricks and different ways of “hoop manipulation”. I have also begun to ‘play’ with a single LED staff. Literally playing with it, is all I have accomplished, it’s hard!

I was so full of doubt, for a few days and my mood turned dark. I didn’t like it, it’s not me. I had to turn it around, I started looking for weird, creative, FUN ways to make money, my ideas are literally bulging out of my head. But again to make money you have to SPEND money and that is my problem, I am back to where I started…

The money woes that we are feeling here in the Pacific Northwest are not un-like other places, just here there are SO many creative folks that I am not the only one trying to creatively make money! I have a lot of competition and this is what makes it tough. I need to learn how to “sell” myself, how to promote and how to SHINE! I am going to be able to make an impact in this life, but when? How?

I love that of all the things I could be worried about, these are the things I am ACTUALLY worried about: “How to take over the world, by Melissa Magic”. See whatI mean? I am FULL of great ideas, there was/is a book right there!

Abundance means different things to different people. I am still making my “Abundance Manifestation Cards” and am learning what they truly mean to ME! I am feeling abundance, even without money, because I am choosing NOT to be without love, friends, positivity and blessings. These things come in many forms and I am forcing myself to see them wherever I look. I have friends who are extremely lucky and are well taken care of, and I am finding myself, instead of feeling jealous of what they have, am feeling grateful that they are in my world, that they are apart of my amazing network of souls that I am learning to model my “new” life after.

I am learning to “take it all in” seeing with more than my eyes, feeling with more than my heart and allowing my energy to mingle with the Goddess energy that I have been calling upon everyday fo inspiration and love. I need guidance and I have opened up the flow for this to occur. If you happen to be an Angel or “guide” of some sort and you are reading this….

Learning to keep my chin up all the while I keep dancing in the storm….

love much~

Melissa Magic